I cannot speak.
Loss renders my words ineffective.
I cannot do what’s expected
I must surrender to soul-retching agony
Make friends, STOP struggling
My evolution is the other side
I see the drones
Afraid of pain, sadness
Who twitch from side to side
An effort of avoidance doomed to fail
I struggle to express how I feel about everything that was us.
It WAS not perfect it was:
till death did we part
when you told me you didn’t kill me because you loved me
until it wasn’t
the moments those crazy moments
held & hold
fierce & independent to destruction
you annoyed more than anyone I have known
cultures clashed = missed meanings
I still don’t understand
no challenge too great
teasing the fabric of life
I felt like I failed you