When your are in forbidden love it takes everything that you have, not just surface bravery, but something deep down inside of you that gives the finger to the hate and says I am not going to hear your bigotry.
The forbidden love was two women, and that is all that I can speak to. We met, fell in love and being apart was impossible, even for a day, but the universe had other ideas and after seven years we were separated forever.
Born this way, I cannot explain, yet I choose those that I love with abandon. Everyone should have this level of connection at least once in their life. Be at peace my love. this is dedicated to you.
Oh, and a tip for finding this kind of love? They are annoying, they push you out of your comfort zone, yet hold you when you fall. They demand more than you thought capable of giving, yet give you more than you could ever imagined. They are your partner not just in love, but mischief, giggles, planning life and helping you stand tall.
Don’t bother with comfort unless you just want an armchair, if you want life choose the unexplainable, courageous woman that throws a pillow at your head because you made her love you.
Loving You Changed My World
I cannot speak.
Loss renders my words ineffective.
I cannot do what’s expected
And pretend.
I must surrender to soul-retching agony
Make friends, STOP struggling
My evolution is the other side
I see the drones
Afraid of pain, sadness
Who twitch from side to side
An effort of avoidance doomed to fail
I struggle to express how I feel about everything that was us.
It WAS not perfect it just was:
passionate
wild womyn
loving
till death did we part
terrifying
when you told me you didn’t kill me because you loved me
safe
until it wasn’t
funking funny
the moments those crazy moments
loving
held & hold
frustrating
fierce & independent to destruction
annoying
you annoyed me more than anyone I have known
electric
bolted lightning
anger
cultures clashed = missed meanings
betrayal
I still don’t understand
adventurous
no challenge too great
mischievous
teasing the fabric of life
exhausting
I felt like I failed you
loving
LOVING
LOVING you was the best mistake I ever made, the biggest risk, the most
heart-breaking…everything.
It Ended in a Shipping Container Masquerading As a Hospital Room
When you took your last breath, I was relieved you no longer suffered, you were no longer afraid.
We were alone in that dump. Nobody came, when you STOPPED breathing.
So I sat there, my hand on your chest that no longer rose, texting your family too busy to see you off, the nurses that were nowhere around.
I cleaned your face, and watched the rats on the floor, just waiting for someone to arrive KNOWING that the chapter with your beautiful smiling SOUL was closed.
THE END